You all can make a girl blush

Once again I am humbled and amazed by all your sweet words. To think that I can find people who know what I'm going through and who can understand me. People who have been through this before and can share their experiences and let me know that what I'm doing really is right. You all constantly leave me speechless with your advice and personal stories and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
Someday soon I'll share the reason with you all of why I'm the only girl in my family and how I came to living with only my dad and my brother, but I have to let you know that at a time in my life where I'm constantly changing and needing female guidance more than ever, I'm glad that in addition to my IRL older female friends, I have the guidance and advice of you wonderful female blog friends. Every single one of you have different experiences, yet all of your experiences and stories are able to help me, so thank you.

Enough mushy stuff.

I thought about it more last night and I realized that I wasn't being stupid, I was listening to my heart and I was holding out on something that I really want. Relationships aren't like a new pair of shoes or an adorable purse, if I want those I can compromise or save money until I get enough. Relationships take practice and meeting enough guys until you can find that perfect one that is meant for you. I know what I want and I will get it eventually. I don't ever need to compromise myself, especially for someone who just wants sex and in his words, "a handjob". Especially if mentioned things are being done in his car. I have a little bit more class than that!! Come on, a car? REALLY?

Also how creepy/desperate do you have to be to propose a hookup to a girl that you've met on the INTERNET? You've never seen me in real life, however you want to use my body? I actually told the guy last night that if he wanted that he could, "go stand outside a club and wait for some drunk girls to come out." I want a relationship and if you can't give that to me, than too bad for you. You're loss not mine. I'm just thankful that I have enough morals and conscious/responsibility in me to listen to myself and be able to analyze the situation before it's too late.

For a while I did consider maybe meeting up with him. He sounded great; nice, funny, not too bad to look at and he told me everything I wanted to hear. It's like he asked my friends what I wanted in a guy and then played it out for me. At one point in our conversation he even told me, "I've watched so many chick movies with my sister, I know exactly how to treat a girl.." I realized later that he was using CHICK MOVIE lines to lure me in! I was on facebook today and commenting on other girls pages that are going to FGCU too, and there he was, flirting with them too! I would love to warn everyone on that campus about this creep.

I'm glad I've had this experience. Now I've been experienced with 2 jerks so far and I know some of the signs to look for. Maybe now I can actually get a chance at a nice guy! A real genuine nice guy who really likes me for me. That's not too much to ask, is it?

The other day in class I was bored, so one of my fave teachers gave me a book to read. She handed me "The Hunger Games" by Suzanne Collins and I couldn't get enough of it! If you loved the Twilight series than you will love this book. It's a little hard to get into, but once you get into it, you won't be able to stop! It's a story of fighting for life for the people you love, all from the eyes of an 18 year old girl (uh, I could have written that book lol). So if you're looking for a good read, pick it up. Next on my list to read is "The Reader" and I want another good chick novel. Any suggestions?

I was going to post pictures of the dresses that I've found, but than again that's more than 15 of them and somehow I don't think the people at David's Bridal would be too thrilled that I was using their pictures, even if I was doing them some good publicity! Hopefully I'[ll be going to look on Sunday, so pictures will hopefully come then. I can tell you though, that the color that I'm in love with is dark Apple red. I've always wanted a red dress - it makes me feel old Hollywood glamorous. Oh and random but the first dress I clicked on was apparently "SEEN IN DISNEY'S HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3", too bad I'm not a 12 year old girl, because than my dream of owning a dress seen in the movies would have become true. I can just picture myself going to the prom and telling everyone, "See this dress? Yeah, people in HSM3 wore it, so there! My dress is better than yours..". Yeah, real mature. Now if Zac Efron will be my date if I wear it, that's another story all together. Perhaps I'll ask David's Bridal Publicity department what they can do, I'm sure they have some strings they can pull. Heck, if I'm going to go that far, why not ask for Justin Timberlake to take me? Or Hugh Grant? Or any of those other sexy English actors....or better yet, Prince William..now theres a fantasy right there.