My college admissions tour is officially over

This week has flown by so fast! I can't belive that it's Friday already, although to be perfectly honest I'm somewhat thrilled. February is almost over which means that March will be here, which in turn means that my graduation is getting closer and closer. I bought a bottle of Fish Oil pills the other day and there are 120 pills in the bottle, as I was taking one out I realized that by the time I am finished with that bottle I will have already been out of school and on summer vacation for three weeks. Wow. I am just a little bit scared.

Graduation hasn't really dawned on me yet. Yes, I get that I'm leaving my school for the last 4 years and that I'm going off to college, but the whole impact hasn't hit me yet. I can only imagine what it will be like the last few weeks before I head off to school and I start having dreams about whether or not I picked up hangers/trashcans/extra sheets from Bed, Bath and Beyond.

I didn't realize how quickly this year would go by. In the beginning it seemed to drag on forever. I had NO free time and I was panicking about whether or not I would get into any school. In fact I panicked so much that after I got deferred from the first school that was said to be a "safety school", I went out and applied for two MORE schools just to be safe. As of yesterday I got back my final letter from the last school that I applied to and they accepted me.

I got into FOUR out of the FIVE schools that I applied to. You don't understand how amazingly good that makes me feel. When I started the whole application process I thought I would be lucky if I could even make it into ONE. God has blessed me enormously. Just to serve as a reminder here is a list of the schools that I applied to.

University of Central Florida (Orlando) - Deferred at first; offered summer admission.
University of South Florida (Tampa) - Deferred at first; offered Fall admission.
Florida Gulf Coast University (Ft.Meyers) - Accepted. Will attend in Fall 2009.
Florida International University (Miami) - Accepted.
University of Florida (Gainesville) - Denied.

To the younger readers who read this blog and will apply to colleges in the next couple years, let this serve as a reminder that anything is possible. The girl with the 3.2 GPA and the 1060 SAT scores (that's only math and reading - it was 1660 altogether) got into four colleges. If I can do it, you certainly can. Don't let the entire process stress you out, it's not worth the stress. Take it from someone who spent a WEEK AND A HALF CRYING because she got deferred from what was her first pick, the pain and tears aren't worth it. Also deferred means neither yes or no, it just means they'll get back to you later.

I'll be making another 45 minute drive to go back to the dress shop I was at last weekend. I found more dresses that I like on their website, so hopefully they'll have them in stock. Prom is SOON so I should probably get my dress now, right? Perhaps if I'm brave enough I'll even snap some pictures while I'm at the store. That or I'll just surprise you on March 21.

In other exciting news, I found out I'll get to work with the babies more. My regular bosses' clients switched their appointment days to Tuesday, which in short means that I now will be able to go and work with the Twins every Thursday instead of every other. I'm thrilled and hopefully their mom is too!

Free Food

Who doesn't like hearing that?

Just something about the word, "free" makes me want to run up and hug someone. More often than not however, "free" is never really free and you often have to end up paying for something along the way. That's why I was suspicious when my friend called me and told me that Quizno's is giving away a million free subs. Yeah, a million. For free. No money necessary. I can have lunch one day this week! According to said friend, the only thing she paid for was her drink and the sub was totally on the house.

I'm not a big fast food person. In fact I don't even like subs (well I like hot subs and the ones with veggies and no deli meat) I'd much rather go to Panera Bread than Wendy's, but for this, than I'm thinking that I just may go get me my free sub (with no deli meat of course - bring on the veggies and chicken). It can't hurt right?

Go here to get your free sub while supplies last.

See, now I've fed you for a day. You can't say I never gave you anything!

This is why I don't get my math homework done

I think I just found what very well may be one of the best websites of all time.
For the past hour and a half (math homework, what math homework?) I have laughed non stop at the unfortunate events in other people's lives. My eyes are wet with tears. So really if you're having a bad day, think that your life sucks, need to feel good about yourself, or just want to laugh until your sides hurt check out this website.

Here are some real gems from this site. By the way, the site is called, F*** My Life, which explains the "FML" at the end of each sentence.


"Today, I asked a very cute fireman for his number "just in case I needed him to come to my rescue"... He told me "Yeah sure!" and scribbled it down. After he walked away I read his note: "911". FML"

" Today I drove into my school, literally drove into my school. FML."

"Today, after I had filled up my car and got into it I saw a cute guy running towards me. I flashed a smile and left the door open and said "hey" when he was next to me. He said, "the pump is still attached to your car, you really should be more careful." FML"

"Today I just got my car fixed from an accident and I drove to a party in a bad thunderstorm. when the power went out everyone decided to watch the Storm from the front windows. Someone mentioned how it would be funny if the tree fell on my car with everyone watching. 20 seconds later it did. FML"

"Today, I arrived at my parents house for dinner. When I got there, I noticed that they had gay pride flags hanging from the porch, and gay rights bumper stickers plastered to their cars. There was also a huge "We accept you, Nick" banner hanging from the garage. I'M NOT GAY! FML"

"Today, I went round to my Grandparents to help set up their new Satellite T.V. When I turned it on, it for some reason defaulted to "Arab Babes TV". I was therefore inadvertently responsible for the broadcast of Porn in my Grandparents living room. FML"

"Today, while on a blind date at Hooters, I ordered my food and the waitress asked me if I was stoned, because she couldn't understand me. I have a speech impediment. FML"

"Today, I came to school late because I had to drop off my daughter at school. When I got on campus, the security told me I was late but I said, "Oh no, I work here." and he said, "Oh like I haven't heard that one before." And he took me to detention. My boss, the Principal, had to bail me out. FML"

"Today, I was stuck in what I thought was traffic on my way home from work. I started weaving in and out of traffic because it seemed to only be a few cars holding up the line. I get to the front of the line and I'd realized I just weaved through a funeral procession. FML"

"Today, I drunk dialed my mom and told her I was so high and drunk that I thought the KGB was coming after me. When I woke up this morning, my mom told me that she's no longer paying for college. FML"

"Today, I returned home from college and saw a framed picture of my parents and my younger sister on an elephant in an exotic jungle. I pointed to the picture and asked my mom, "Is this some photoshop job?" She responded, "No, we went to Thailand for a family trip, didn't we tell you?" FML"

Excuses, Excuses

I failed. I am the Blogger Fail Whale.

I totally promised to do a Oscar fashion post (filled with my lovely sarcasm and honesty) and I did NOT get it done. You see, I went to school today and then went to Target and got caught up looking at shorts. And then I came home, had a headache and fell asleep for 3 hours (yes, it is a nice life I have) and woke up at around 8. Then I looked at more prom dresses because I found some BEAUTIFUL ONES that I am in love with (and have to try on as soon as I get time to travel the hour to get to the store) and before I knew it, it was 11:00. I still have to take a shower and read 3 chapters in Environmental Science because I have a test on it tomorrow. Yes friends, this is called procrastination. I seem to be extraordinarily good at it.

I'm thinking that being a stay at home mom sounds pretty good right about now. You don't need Environmental Science for that, right?

I will leave you with a preview of my little Oscar fun though. Keep that in mind, this is all in good fun.

Vanessa Hudgens apparently got hit by geese on her way to the Oscars. Thank God she dressed like a mermaid so that she was prepared for her own miracle landing.

Picture Credit: JustJared

Jennifer Aniston was a presenter at the Oscars this year. A few feet away from her sat husband stealer Angelina Jolie with Aniston's Ex Brad Pitt. While presenting, ABC's camera's cut to a shot of Jolie and the "entire press room" allegedly gasped. (Did they think Angelina would be shooting daggers out of her eyes or something?) But this isn't about Angelina or the press, this is about Jennifer Aniston who managed to look amazing and lead women in living rooms across America to think, dayum I hope I look that good when I'm 40. Or maybe perhaps 30...okay fine 20 is okay too!

Blogher '09 - who's going?

Just a quick post before I go and watch the Oscars (post to come on the fashion..that should be interesting).

I've been thinking about attending Blogher '09. For those of you who don't know what the BlogHer conference is, it's a conference where everyone in the blogging world can go and learn more about blogging, while meeting the friends they've met online. The event will be held in Chicago this year (only my favorite place in the world) on July 24-25th.

Last year, I sat and read different blogger's posts on the Blogher conferences and the parties that they attended and it looked like so much fun. That and an amazing way to meet some of the people that you've gotten to know online. Also, Dooce was there. This year she's expected to be there again and MckMama may be there too. Sounds like fun.

I can get a great deal on the tickets to the event as I am a student and my ID entitles me to an amazing discount. The only thing I would have to pay for besides the conference would be plane ticket and lodging (which can be quite expensive in Chi-town). My question to all of you is, who's going to Blogher '09?

I would love to go (in case you didn't get that already), but I fel that I would probably need to "know" one person who was going first. I am 18 after all. That and the fact that getting my dad to agree to this may be a little complicated. "Hey dad, I want to go meet a bunch of people I talk to online in at a conference. It's in Chicago!" Somehow I think I may have a little more explaining than that to do.

For more information about Blogher '09 you can go here. It's a huge event in blogworld, so I hope you'll consider. Let me know if you're going! I would love to meet up with you in real life and it would be REAL fun.

Oh, Oscars are on. Must go and watch people that I want to interview at this type of thing one day. Yeah that's right, I'll be an interviewer on the Red Carpet!

One more thing - Hugh Jackman? SEXY!

I do not have a cold, I am just unusually warm and tired

So when would a normal person classify themselves as "sick"?
Would it be:
A) At the first signs of symptoms
B) When they are occasionally sneezing, coughing, blowing their nose, etc
C) When they are in the car, driving friends to look at prom dresses and you start having a sneeze attack right in the middle of busy traffic, whilst making your friend search all over the dang car for Kleenex, only to find out that no one in the car can reach them because they are under the seat. Throat starts to hurt worse then before and oh yeah, the fever comes back not once, but twice during the day. Prom dress shopping turns into a heat fest of sorts.

I choose C. What about you?

I try not to take medicines like Tylenol, Motrin, etc because I try and stay natural and organic. I usually use Umcka cold care, but I broke down today and took me some good old Tylenol Cold Daytime. It helped temporarily. I'm also giving myself doses of echanicia (yuck) and drinking TONS of Orange Juice. For this, I am glad I live in Florida where I can have fresh squeezed anytime I want. Which would be now, since I am determined to beat this "cold" by Wednesday. I'm still not admitting it's a cold. No, that is impossible because I have a great immune system and NEVER get sick. This is merely a lapse in the system.

I'm sure you're wondering about the dress. Yes? Well after an hour at David's Bridal, we went to Macy's and I found one there that I bought for $49.00. Yes, thank you sale rack. I tried it on just for fun and my friends liked it better than the ones I had on at David's Bridal. It's not as fancy as traditional prom dresses, but than again I'm not going traditional as I have no date. I'll get some crystals for my hair or something.
I would show you guys a picture of it now, but multiple searches on Google can not find a stock photo of it! If you're interested and have time on your hands, the Brand is Jones New York Dress and the style is "Mardi Gras" in Lipstick Red. I would go and upload a pic of it, if I wasn't too lazy to get out of my bed and go get my camera. After all I'm sick

It was $49.00 so I felt compelled to get it. If I find something better before March 21, than I'll get that and keep this as a cocktail dress or my graduation party dress. It was such a bargain that how could I not get it?! I still intend on doing a search at Bloomingdales and other dress store...suggestions?

Oh and remember that douchebag dick of a guy that tried to "sollicit" me for sexual acts (or rather just plain sex)? Remember how he told me that he didn't want a relationship because he was going off to school (um idiot we were going to the same school) and that he just wanted to be "friends with benefits?" Well thanks to facebook, it appears that Mr.cocktoosmalltogetagirlfriend, does indeed now have a girl friend. I feel for that girl, they're probably doing it in his BMW. I prefer Range Rovers.

The last time I had an Olympic Swimmer at my birthday was well, never.

Today is my brother's 13th birthday. I've offically become scared. When the heck did this kid get to be 13? It most certainly was not 13 years ago that I saw him for the first time and became a big sister! I can still remember that day and it feels like yesterday...oh boy, my life is going too fast!

The boy had a party last night. Two of his friends spent the night so that they could wake up at 6:30 this morning and go fishing. Not exactly my kind of fun, instead while they did that I slept in my nice bed til 9:30 and would have slept longer if I didn't have to get up. I wanted to beat those children last night. They decided that it would be okay to bang on the walls and doors at 12 something AM and then call me multiple times from the other room on my cell phone. Seriously? When I was 13 we made movies with my dad's video camera...what the heck kids, what the heck. Thank God there was only 3 of them, any more of them and I would have stabbed someone. Probably the one that was banging on the walls.

In addition to it being my brother's birthday, A had her 4 year old birthday party. It was a Fancy Nancy themed party, complete with makeup, nail painting (compliments of yours truly) and a real life Fancy Nancy (that scared the living hell out of me when I walked in the door). It takes a real special kind of woman to dress up like that. You couldn't pay me enough money in the world to do that. I believe that Halloween comes around only once a year and even then I don't dress up. I have too much embarrassment in me or something like that.

I'm setting up my little station when the first guest arrives. In walks this amazing muscular, built woman with a beautiful Tory Burch tote bag. I stare at her for a little longer (as in like 5 seconds) and then realize OH HEY IT'S DARA TORRES. The OLYMPIC SWIMMER LADY. My boss is her masseuse and she brought her 3 year old daughter Tessa to the party. And then my mind starts working. In addition to it being my brother's birthday, one of my great friends, Alison's birthday was today too. Alison is a swimmer and was scouted last year to be on Arkansas University's swim team this year. She's a pretty amazing swimmer. Anyways Dara Torres is one of her "idols" of swimming. Can you guys guess what's coming?

I totally did what any journalist would do (or maybe a person with no shame, it's debatable) and went up to Dara and reintroduced myself.
"Hi, I'm Kelsey, we've met before once or twice.Great job in the Olympics. Anyways it's my friends 19th birthday today and she's a swimmer and looks up to you. This is totally inappropriate, but would you mind giving her a call?"

Let's just say that when I got my phone back while I was painting Tessa's toenails, I had a very emotional friend waiting for me on the phone. In Alison's words, I gave her the "best birthday present". If you're reading this Ali, than I'm glad I could! Go get them at the championships this week - make Dara proud!! Next up, I'm going to get Michael Phelps to call you. I should have looked at Dara's phone for his number. I will say that I thought about pulling out my camera and totally asking for someone to take our picture together, but than I thought that she would probably feel like she was being mobbed by some crazy girl with nail polish and that's not the kind of rep I'll need in the journalism business. Who knows, I may need her for an article in a few years...it's all about connections baby.

I think I need to make some business cards or something. The job offers are just pouring in! One of my bosses friends just had a baby in October and they were at the party today. I got to hold the little guy and they took my number as they want a "real baby lover" to come watch him in the next couple weeks so they can have date night. No problem there. Maybe it will cure some of this baby fever.

I always find it strange that whenever I'm at these parties, new moms always feel the need to tell me all about their delivery and breast feeding. Perhaps I'm wearing a sign that says, "YES, PLEASE FREAK ME OUT ABOUT LABOR SO THAT CHILDBEARING GETS PUT OFF FOR ANOTHER 20 YEARS". Maybe my dad put it on me while I was sleeping.

Today I also learned from a very excited new mom that my breasts are, "not just an accessory to attract the men with girl. You use those things to feed your baby the most important thing you can ever give them! My husband asks to share with the baby now!"
Um thank you stranger. Thank you very much for that well needed advice. Because I am 18 and having a baby in the next few months is obviously what I'm thinking about. Graduation and college? No. Who needs that? But breastfeeding, yes, that's what I'm thinking about! Maybe the advice will be nice in 10 or so years. Remind me to contact that nice woman.

Tomorrow I'll be going Prom Dress shopping. We're hitting up David's Bridal first and then maybe on to somewhere a good hour or so away. We'll see. I want a red dress, apparently it brings out my eyes.

Happy Hearts Day

Happy Valentine's Day!
I'll be spending the majority of it in bed with a super sexy man who I picked up when I was at the store the other day.....(did your mind's totally just give way to those "dirty" thoughts?) I'm sick, I don't think any man would want to come into this bed at all right now lol. Instead, I will be attempting to watch several of my favorite love stories (and super sexy men) - "The Holiday" and "Love Actually" and "Bridget Jones' Diary."

I've worked myself too hard this past week I guess, and my body is finally begging for a rest! I guess I should listen to it or else.. Tonight my brother will be having his friends spend the night at my house as he is turning 13 tomorrow (sob..where did my BABY brother go?!) and is taking his friends on a fishing excursion in the morning. No, I'm not going with them because A) It's at 7 AM and hello, I like my sleep thanksverymuch. and B) A turned 4 on the 12th and her party is tomorrow and I'm painting the little girl's nails. That should be interesting as I can barely paint my own!! Hopefully they'll sit still so I can do a somewhat decent job.

I saw the twins the other day and once again I loved it. Boy baby decided to puke all over me after I bathed him and got him into his pajamas and was putting him to sleep. Thankfully I didn't really care about that shirt and it was only formula! I still think he's pretty cute even if he does puke on me- it just means I have to find another way to burp the little guy as the method I used, obviously wasn't working. Also he's the second baby that's done this so, I guess I'm used to this by now.

I wanted to say a quick, "hi" to all my new followers and people who have recently started visiting my blog! Please excuse my rude behavior as I haven't yet been to all of your blogs! I'm working on it though. Thanks for your sweet comments too!

I hope you all have a great Valentines with your husbands, boyfriends, partners and if you're single like I am, than go out and have some fun! Or you can look at it this way and see that tomorrow at CVS all the chocolate will be 75% off retail price....

Tire Kingdom ain't no Nordstroms.

It's official. I know Not A Thing about motor vehicles. Nor do I know what my Insurance Card looks like. Nor do I know how to read my Odometer, because really, why would I? Perhaps if I had listened to what people told me read the information pamphlet I got with my lovely car, I would know that the odometer and trip milage are NOT the same thing. Just like if you keep pushing the radio buttons while you have a CD in and playing, the CD will not move to the next song. Also it's very important not to try such tasks while driving on a busy highway as you MAY swerve into the next lane and realize that just as you are passing a cop on a motorcylce. Oh yeah, this girl is TALENTED!

We recently (and when I say "we", I mean my father), switched our auto insurance from Travelers to Americorp with Costco. Part of the package was that I had to go and get my car inspected again, so today after I got out of school at 12:15 (I love getting out early..I can not say that enough) I got to drive around like a moron find Tire Kingdom so that they could do the inspection.

I got to the place and I had to fill out forms, so I went to the car only to discover that the insurance card that my dad CLAIMS he gave me was not there. Excellent. So then I call him and he's all, "I gave it to you" and I'm all, "you definitely didn't" and we could have gone back and forth like that for awhile except I had actual things to do. Like get my car inspected and eat lunch. Because yes, eating and getting a car inspected IS more important that sewing up your patient's face.

I finally got all the information I needed for paperwork and took it back inside. I'm holding the clipboard and staring off into space (or something like that) when the guy calls me. "Ma'am. Ma'am. Ma'am. HEY I CAN TAKE YOU NOW." Woah, when did I become a "MA'AM"? I was pretty sure I had a few years of the MISS thing left! I CAN'T EVEN BUY ALCOHOL YET. DO I LOOK THAT OLD/TIRED/BAD?

From now on I'm wearing a sign around my neck that says, "still young" or maybe I should just stop wearing my clothing of Lacoste polo's and jeans. Yesterday I wore a blue polo and a white skirt and my friend tells me, "aww, you look like a mommy." What the heck!? The she goes, "well not like an old mom, but like a young mom with a baby or something....you're going to be a good mom." Excellent. So now my job really does follow me around in my life. Not only do I get to play mommy for a few hours a day, but now I dress like one? I'm SO going out and buying clubbing clothes ASAP.

Ahem. Enough stupid rambling and back to my Tire Kingdom hell. So the guy finally checks out my car and lets me know that I didn't read my odometer correctly. Then he starts asking me questions.
Guy: "So does this thing have side airbags?"
Me: "Yes, it has side AND curtain airbags."
Guy: "No, it doesn't."
Me: "Uh yes actually, it does. That's one of the reasons I GOT this car was because of the side and curtain airbags. See look, the sticker that SAYS that it does is right here."
Guy: "Oh. Most cars have the airbags on the door."
Me: "Can you check my tire pressure for me? I want to make sure I have enough air in my tires. Or can you just tell me how to do it?"
Guy: "Did the light come on?"
Me: "What light? there's a light for my tires? Where would that be?"
Guy: "I don't know, maybe you should read the manual."

Nice guy right? I'm pretty sure I just gave him all the evidence he needs to say that women aren't capable of being informed drivers. It's a good thing he didn't drive with me, because than he would think that we're not capable of parking correctly either.

Sitting at Panera

I found this over on Hula's blog and I'm "borrowing" it from her! I'm sitting at Panera Bread (ohhh my addiction to their amazing soups has gotten bad) and I'm bored (trying not to eat the entire place) so I figured I'll keep my hands busy and type!

1) What are the 3 things you would save out of your burning house?
photo albums, wallet, and my stuffed doll that I got when I was born
2) What was the last thing you read/are currently reading?
"Guilty" by Ann Coulter (no comments unless their nice about this LOL)
3) Do you nap a lot?
I can't live without my naps.
4) Who was the last person you hugged?
dad
5) Where would you like to be at this very moment?
on a plane going to Chi-town.
6) What is the last thing you said out loud?
"excuse me" to some woman who gave me a death glare when I got in her way...
7) What websites do you always visit when you go online?
yahoo, facebook, blogger
8) What was the last item you bought?
Tomato soup and a half of a sandwich (which I totally just forgot the name of)
9) What is your most challenging goal?
To accept my body for what it is
10) If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished, anywhere in the world, where would it be?
Chicago
11) Favorite Vacation spot?
big cities!
12) Say something to the person who tagged you:
Well since I sort of just took this, um thanks Hula for posting this!
13) Name one thing you just can't resist no matter how bad it is for you:
cupcakes..yeah it's bad.
14) What is your favorite item of clothing?
my bra's
15) Favorite pair of shoes you keep going back to over and over, even though your closet is over flowing with a zillion others?!
my Coach flip flops that are literally falling apart
16) Name one thing you can not live with out:

love
17) What do you envy?
people in relationships and married women with babies!
18) If you could only have one 3 course meal for eternity,what would it be?
soup, pasta, dessert (this says something about my eating habits right!?)
19) If you could have one superhuman power, what would it be?
power to transform myself into other things
20) If you could contribute to any charitable organization, what would it be, and why?

Adoption organizations so that every child could have a home.

Good news!

It's been such a great day today.
I've hung out with friends, got some shopping in (well more like browsing, I didn't buy anything) and ate delicious food. Even better is that I got an AWESOME job offer!
Remember the baby twins that I had mentioned in my last post? Well, the mom and I have been emailing back and forth for a few days now and as soon as the summer starts, I'll be watching the babies every Monday from 9-7 and every other Thursday from 9-7. How amazing is that!? I'm so excited. Not only that, but they are paying me really well, and that means I'll be able to search for a great job for a few months in college without having to worry about getting one right away.
I'm so, so thankful. God is so good, always blessing me in unexpected ways!

My other family that I've been working for for that past 3 years has not taken my news too well. I did not quit on them (however at some times I am THISCLOSE too) and they are acting like real jerks about my recent news. I told them on Wednesday that I'll no longer be working for them every Thursday and instead it will be every other. On Thursday when I took A to ballet class, mom boss calls me and starts begging me to reconsider and to have the other woman have me on a different day. This is after I already explained to her that I was doing it because they are going to pay me more than she is now, and that the other woman only wants me on Thursdays for right now as she has help on the other days.

Not once did mom boss offer to raise my salary or perhaps switch HER schedule around if she needs me so badly. Instead she called it an "inconvenience" on my part and then continued to tell me that she didn't know what she and her husband where going to do. Well, tip to the wise, maybe I wouldn't have had to take the other job if they had raised my pay like I asked them to do several months ago. Maybe if they had treated me a little bit better and tried a little bit harder to raise their child in a respectful way, than I would want to stick around.
I love A, but she's been doing some things that I really can't stand. It's not her fault, it's her parent's and they can't see that by not disciplining her or following through with things, that she's becoming more spoiled. During that phone call with momboss I stayed calm and didn't say anything mean or rude to her, I just said that "I'm sure everything will work out, and if you need to, you'll find someone else". I didn't say that perhaps her schedule of calling me whenever to come watch her kid has been a bit of an "inconvenience" to me for the last few years. I didn't say that her having me cancel my dentist appointment last month was an "inconvenience" to me.

I've been taught a valuable lesson through this. People change and sometimes they're not who you thought they were. When I started, I loved my boss, I thought she was awesome. I still have a love and thanks for her and I always will, but I've lost some of my respect. For the last few years I didn't listen to anyone when they told me that I was being treated like crap by them, or that I was working for less money than I should have. I simply ignorned them, because I didn't want to hear it. This woman who graciously let me take care of her toddler was in a way, my hero. She gave me my first real job and more experience with kids than I thought I would have, until I had my own. I remember the first time that I spent the night and watched A for a weekend for them and they didn't pay me for the time that she slept. My dad was apalled and told me to go back and demand that I get paid; I didn't because I didn't think there was any way that they would ever take advantage of me.

Perhaps I am to blame. I didn't stand up for myself and I let them walk all over me because I was scared. I hate people being angry at me, and for awhile I used their home as my escape from my own unhappy home life. I wanted to see what a real family was like and I wanted to observe how to be a good mom, something I never thought I would be able to learn otherwise. Looking back now, I've learned valuable things from this job. I've learned how to love, how to have endless amounts of patience, how to be firm but loving at the same time, and how differently I want to parent my child than they do theirs. I've learned that you have to be your child's parent, not their friend as that won't work in the long run. Discipline is key in a happy and sucessful child.

I don't know what the future holds for our relationship. I will always love A. I will be forever thankful to her parents and I will continue to love them for what they've done for me. I can forgive them for things that weren't necessarily right and I hope to still have contact with them when I leave. If they want me to continue working for them, than I'll do it and if they want me to quit altogether, than that's fine too. I had a wonderful 3 years with them and I'll treasure those years after I've had children of my own and know how to give them baths and cook thier foods all because of A. No one said this job would be easy, but that's a challenge and a task that I was and still am willing to embrace.

Am I still in Florida anymore?

I've got it.
That cold that EVERYONE else in the state of Florida has because our weather keeps going from REALLY HOT to FREEZING cold? yeah, it's tracked me down, laughed at me and then slapped me across the face with a handful of sneezes. Tonight we have a FREEZE watch in South Florida for the first time in 20 years - great, guess who's so NOT getting up early tomorrow to enjoy that. Nope, I'm going to school at 10:30.

I should be proud of myself, I stood up for myself today.
A while ago, I asked my boss for a raise of $7.00 per hour to $10. I was doing more and I wasn't working as many hours and because of her crazy schedule I couldn't get another job. They said no, told me that this wasn't my real job (actually the words were different than that, but that was the jist of it) and gave me a raise of a dollar. Yes, a dollar. Anyways... The mom of the twins that I watched called me today and she loves me. She was begging for me to come back every Thursday (as that is her regular nanny's day off) and she is paying me about $90.00 a day. Wow. That's almost as much as I make in a WEEK for my regular people.

Now here's where the problem comes in. My regular boss has a client that she works for every Thursday and she can't switch them. Two weeks ago I had a dentist appointment on a Thursday afternoon and she had me cancel it because she needed someone to watch A. Not only that, but then she yelled at me for like an hour. I cried alone in my car later because I was so frustrated. It made me realize that they haven't been treating me like they should for a long time now. It's not there fault, both parents are a little quirky and really sweet people once you get to know them, but their people skills department is lacking. I love them, but it's time to move on and watch out for myself.

I told my boss today that I would work for her two Thursdays a month and the other woman two Thursdays a month, it's that of nothing at all. She's not happy about it, but that's not my problem. I told her how much the other people are paying me and let it go at that. I didn't say that the other woman also treated me a heck of a lot better. So now on Thursdays where I leave school early I'll be watching the twinsies and Thursdays where I leave school on regular time I'll be watching A.

I don't regret my decision and I'm happy I looked out for myself. Not only that, but I know that when the time comes for me to get references to move on to another job, I'm going to have a problem. The people I've worked for for the last 3 years STILL don't consider me a nanny. Ummmm, okay. When you have someone over to your house on a set schedule to watch your kid for the last 3 years, yes, that is a nanny. When your "babysitter" does your laundry, cooks for you, bathes your child and cleans up around the house, yes that is a nanny. When your "babysitter" loves your child like a younger sibling, than yes, that is a nanny. When you pay me once a week a lump sum, than yes, I am your nanny. Since they can't admit to having a part time nanny for the last 3 years, I'm going to have a problem getting references from them, so I needed another job to back that part up. I also have to start saving some more money for college and this new job will go towards that.

I'm also very excited. I can't wait to take care of these babies some more and watch them grow! I love that about A, watching her constantly grow and develop love for different things as she learns about whats around her. It's going to be a lot of work, but it's something that I want to do and I'm doing it.

So that's the second time this year that I've watched my back and made a decision for me and not to make someone else happy. First it was the newspaper and now this. I'm making myself happy and that's what matters, I need to put myself first for a change and if you want to come along for the ride, than hop on!

Thank you all for your comments about yesterday. The majority of you were right on with guessing that I was sick. Me? Sick? No...never...actually I'm surprised, I usually have a really good immune system! I wouldn't go to school tomorrow, but I have a project for environmental science where we have to make a solar cooker and that's due tomorrow. Too bad that we don't even have our main part of the project yet - the box! We do however have marshmallows, graham crackers and chocolate that is now freezing itself in my car. Yay for cold chocolate.

Remember that little girl Tuesday, that I told you about. I found a link to a woman who will be going to Tuesday's memorial ceremony and she had the idea to make a bunch of paper hearts with our comments on them for Tuesday's family. If you would like to send a heart for Tuesday's family, please go here and leave a comment.

I've left mine already and I know that Tuesday's family will one day appreciate reading each one. I can't imagine their loss right now, it's awful and my heart is with them. I tear up each time I think about it. Big hugs and prayers to the Whitt family.

I'm off to go take a nice hot shower and then bundle up in bed and watch the frost come onto my windows...actually, no I'll most likely be sleeping but still, it was a nice thought. Bundle up my fellow Floridians! We're in for some cold days ahead.

Immunity is shot

I'm in need of some help from my bloggers!
Maybe someone can identify these symptoms and tell me whats up.
My left eye feels really dry and hurts badly. The skin around my eye feels tight and it should be red, but it's not. If I rub it, it doesn't tear up, it just burns and becomes dryer. What in the world???? I also have come down with the sniffles and sneezing.
One of the babies was sick yesterday and I was stupid and cuddled with him and kissed him on his head and he sneezed on me, so am I possibly sick? I'm thinking it's just allergies or something, as I don't think I could catch his cold that quickly. I'm also unusually tired (no, it's probably NOT because I'm up at 12:30 AM blogging right? ).
Thanks for your help guys. Heres hoping that everyone is doing well and not getting this cold that's going around.

Also please pray for a little girl named Tuesday's family. Little 2 year old Tuesday recently passed away from cancer. I found her story tonight and was touched by it; I know many bloggers already know her story, but for those of you who don't ask me and I'll find the link for you.

Twins - cute to cuddle, but lots of work

Whoever said that babies don't require much attention lied.
Today I had the chance to watch twin 7 week olds from 1-7:30 and I jumped at it. They're babies, adorable cute little babies, how hard could it be? Um yeah, I don't think I went for at least 5 minutes without an infant in my hands.

The mom is a friend of a gym teacher's that I know and she gave her my number. The mom called me yesterday and sounded pretty desperate - apparently the woman that usually helps her out was out of town for two weeks and she needed someone to come and help her today. She sounded nice enough and I figured that she needed help for the babies if she was willing to call a complete stranger to come and help her with her newborns.

I got there today and she answered the door holding baby L (The boy). We talked for a few seconds and then she had me go to the bassinet and pick up baby F (the girl) to play with her on her little tummy mat. Baby L and F are adorable! I'm so glad I went. I fed them each 2 bottles, changed both of their diapers twice, gave them baths, played with them on the floor, took them on a walk and put them to bed for the night. It was a lot of work (seriously I applaud all you mothers of multiples; you must have zero time on your hands), but wonderful experience and she wants me to come every Thursday. I'd love to, but my regular family has me every Thursday (popular day?). A large part of me says to tell the people I usually work for that I can't work on that day for them anymore, but I know that I don't have the courage to do that. I'm telling momboss however to let me know if she ever doesn't need me on a Thursday so that I can go play with the twinsies. The mom was very insistent upon me coming back again.I forgot how different newborns are from older babies. They were so sweet cuddling up to me in my arms and they fit perfectly! I need to work on my burping skills though - I couldn't get L to burp!

The mom and her husband were both journalists and they both worked at the paper that I'll intern at in Ft. Meyers! She said if I ever need help getting an internship to call them and they'll set it up for me. How cool is that? Her husband worked at USA Today and she worked at some other big places too, plus they went to the journalism school that I'll eventually go to. I'm so lucky that she called me! I knew having infant cpr certification would pay off one day!

Okay so enough rambling about how in love I am with babies (because we already knew that to begin with). The other day I got into my first car accident - lovely, I know. I was at my friends house and he was going to wash my car. Someone was parked in my regular spot and when the left, I went to go park in it. I'm backing up and apparently sometime when I was backing up, some jerk in a little sports car zips past me and into a spot. I had just checked my mirror and no one was there so I kept backing up until CRASH and I looked up in my mirror to see this guy coming up to my car and my friend with his mouth open. And then the first thing I thought was OMG. The asshat comes up to my car and goes, "so you want to see the damage to my car?" and I go, "yeah I do" because I wasn't even going when I hit him, I was at less than 5 mph, it couldnt' have been that bad. This jerk proceeds to make a huge deal out of checking out his car, even going to underneath the dang thing to make sure everything was okay. My car is off the ground, it couldn't have hit underneath his car if it tried. He finally calmed down and said that everything was okay, so I went back to my car.

I'm hanging out with my friend, waiting for him to wash my car when I look to the side of my car and OMG The side bumper above the wheel had popped out. Basically all we needed was someone to pop it back in, but it scared the living hell out of me. My first thought was, "MY BABY", my second thought was, "OMG How much is this going to cost me? I have no money. God help me." I took it to Sears auto place and thankfully the guy just popped the part back in with no charge to me at all. I do however need to find a screw for my bumper, hopefully that doesn't cost that much.

I learned my lesson though. Always, Always, Always check your mirror when backing up, because some jerk in a sportscar could zip past you at any second. And then you could hit it. And then you could be royally screwed. I also learned that I do care about my car - I almost hyperventallated when I saw the damage, so thank God it wasn't worse and could be easily fixed.

So that was my weekend (well yesterday morning at least). Now I'm off to go wash my face and go to bed, I'm exhausted and need my sleep. Apparently the whole, "sleep when the baby sleeps" thing doesn't apply with twins.

Please excuse me while I go watch 7 week old twins

Rules:
1. Put your iTunes/iPod/MP3 on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your next answer. don't cheat and skip.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how outrageous it sounds!
TAG as many people as possible

IF SOMEONE SAYS, “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Hollywood's Not America - Ferras

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Get it Poppin' - Fat Joe

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
LDN - Lily Allen

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Hello Brooklyn - Jay Z

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S MOTTO?
Welcome to the Jungle - Guns N Roses

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Barbie Girl - Aqua [wow, this is fitting LOL]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Arab Money - Busta Rhymes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Superwoman - Alicia Keys

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Baby - LL Cool J

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Tears Dry on their own - Amy Winehouse

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Gasolina - Daddy Yankee [too bad I can't understand the lyrics of the SPANISH song]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Be Okay- Ingrid Michaelson

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
You're So Vain - Carly Simon

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Every Morning- Sugar Ray

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Miami - Will Smith

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
A Billi - Jay Z [hmmm, money as a interest? That's not too bad]


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Little Miss Obsessive - Ashlee Simpson

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Outta My Head - Ashlee Simpson

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Corporate Takeover - Jay Z

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Anthem - Pitbull

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Love Song - Sarah Bareilles

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Your Joy - Chrisette Michelle

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
I've been thinkin' - Jennifer Lopez

WHAT DO YOU YELL OUT DURING SEX?
Paper Aeroplane - KT Tunstall [um if I ever do yell that out, please someone slap me]

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
When I Grow Up - The Pussycat Dolls

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
California Love - 2Pac [okay so the state of California likes me...interesting]

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Keeps Gettin' Better - Christina Aguilara

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Bills, Bills, Bills - Destiny's Child

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
How Sweet it is - Michael Buble

TO THE CRUSH OUT THERE I WOULD LIKE TO SING TO YOU...
Ready for Whatever - T.I.

SOMETIMES I WANT TO YELL..
Tangerine Speedo - Caviar [If I ever see anyone in a tangerine speedo, I can guarantee you I'll be yelling]

I THINK THIS SURVEY IS..
Toy Soldier - Britney Spears

Feel free to do this yourself! It's pretty fun. Plus you can see what all we all have on iTunes lol. My music style is a little bit of everything.